September Story

September is my birthday month. But I always encounter with bad things in September. I can assure you that this year's September is really really something I never expected it to be. It all started well. My birthday was normal. A birthday cake from my bestfriend, Anis. We spent the day sending kids to Kak Na because we went house viewing. It was tiring and frustrating at the same time. We end the day having late lunch at Secret Recipe, just the both of us. And at night, we took some pictures with the kids, just for memories. It was a normal birthday. 

Monday morning, 20th September 2020, my husband complained of chest pains and he went to emergency HKL. All his readings was normal and was given meds and 2 days MC. Then 21st September, during maghrib, he was going to perform Maghrib prayer when all of the sudden, he was unresponsive. I tried waking him up but fail. I called my mom and told my brother to come. Azim came with Angah who also live nearby. They tried waking him up too, but still fail. Angah decided to call ambulance. It took quite a while before they send ambulance out because they need to do diagnose through phone call and confirm whether its Covid-19 or not. My husband just recently did covid test and it was negative. 

The ambulance took quite a while to arrive. We continue monitoring his oxygen level. When ambulance arrived, they asked me to fill triage forms and I didnt see whatever procedures they did to my husband. Zira came before ambulance arrived and took care of the kids. When husband was brought to the living room, my sister took the kids into the room. I was busy filling the forms, forced to fill the forms as fast as I could. 

It all happened so fast. I cried a bit but more to panicked. I called my in laws to inform. Azim followed inside the ambulance. He took care of everything. Few hours later, my husband finally awake. It took him 3 hours. Around 12pm, doctor called me and inform that he's stable and will be transferred to the ward. That night also, my parents in law arrived with two of his siblings (3 of them are fully vaccinated and one of them is under age). 

Husband's first diagnose is heart attack. And then after further tests is done, his diagnose changed to Pericarditis. After few days warded, he was discharged and given 14 days MC. He's still under medication and will continue follow up with cardio specialist. He MUST stop smoking and take care of his cholesterol levels. 

My milk supply drops. I keep on forgetting meals. And many other things. 

What a September. 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M. 

Friday Favorites

My new keyboard 

Husband got it from Mr. DIY for only RM35 yet I am so satisfied with it because it's a mechanical & floating-alike keyboard. I love the feeling of typing with it. I am loving the price even more. Haha. 

Lint Roller 

Remember postpartum hair loss? You know what's worst than losing hair? It's about seeing them everywhere. Strands of hair, everywhere. I even caught one in my food, which sucks because eating hair make me lost my appetite. So having this lint roller is such a convenience because I can just roll it everywhere and get those hair out of my sight. 

Oldies Hits

I dont really fancy current hits song. So having to listen to oldies like 90s and early 2000s on Youtube is kinda my favorite. It bring out a lot of memories and bringing out the joy in me. 

A day before weekend!

I have few orders to complete tomorrow and I cant wait! Alhamdulillah. I hope I can make those orders so good and please those customers. 

Currently listening 

Shut Up & Dance - WALK THE MOON 

Current mood

I was having quite a down time this morning, some overthinking. I wake up feeling a little groggy. Hannah was having some of her moments last night so we slept late. I turned on my scented candle, lie down alone for a moment and thinking the kids are still sleeping, its time for breakfast alone time. 

Friday Breakfast 

Waffle. And I had one of the quietest morning ever. Alhamdulillah. Well, only for a while, Harris wakes up 15 minutes later.

So what's up with your Friday? 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M. 

Impromptu Haul (or somewhat accidental, oopss)

Remember I was focusing on launching my baked goods. So yeah, I went into some kind of bump where I dont have the perfect ribbon for my box. I really wanted to complete my photoshoot and waiting for another item from shopee is something I cant have at the moment. I really dont know where to get the right ribbon but I am very convinced that they sell it at Mr. DIY. So I told my husband I need to go there. I got ready in a zap and went there alone. Hannah's well fed, Harris is fine as long as my husband's home. 

But of course, Mr. DIY kot. Do you expect me coming home with ONLY ribbon? Hah! 

I swear, I didnt know Mr. DIY has upgraded by ALOT. I mean, a lot of functional things that I thought only available online but its there! So I bought few of other things as well. Those are the things I need too. I am under 99% of self-control (huh), I can assure you that. Plus, my house is so full of things already. 

Stationeries are so tempting, but I got like another box of unused stationaries, washi tapes and stickers so I guess I am good, for now. I always feel so sayang to use those items and ended up having tonnes of them.  

Just gonna show you my PC set up. It's just a simple one. That keyboard was a gift from my husband. I saw it at Mr. DIY yesterday for such reasonable price (cheaper than what I initially wanted), so my husband went today and bought it as a surprise. I would be mad if he bought pricey ones for me though so this is a very well-spent surprise. Teheheee. He bought those microphones and speaker and many other things to complete this PC. 

I am still up at this hour doing some baking experiments due to some requests by my siblings. Baked upon request. I love baking, but still have a lot to learn on the arts of it. And a lot of money spent for it.  Well, opening a bakery was once a dream of mine, and still is. In sha Allah, one day :) 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M. 

Sunny Sunday

Saturday was supposed to be our weekly morning walk but I caught Harris watching tv at 3am that night so he wakes up pretty late and I dont want to wake him up and having to deal with his crankiness later. So we spent the day at home. I get to steal some time to do some photoshoot for my upcoming baked goods that I am planning to sell. I didnt get to do all that on weekdays because husband is not working from home anymore, so my days filled with taking take of two kids. Its hard I tell you. With online classes for Harris, while taking care of Hannah. 

I am trying not to procrastinate (I'm such a goddess) with launching this baked goods so I am using all my weekend focusing on that while husband takes care of the kids. And finally, photos are done, posters are done. Packing videos are done too. But I am still so scared to upload the posters and start promoting. I keep on second guessing everything and hesitate. I really hope I could just buy confidence because I am definitely lacking of those. I am just not to convinced that anybody would want to buy my baked goods because maybe its not that good, or maybe they could get it elsewhere or idk so many negative thoughts in my heads lol. 

Anyway, my PC is all set up. Courtesy of my mom (she has 4 pc btw) for her students and now she's pensioning, so she gave all her pc away to my other siblings as well. I gotta thank husband for setting this all up and getting everything completed. Probably I could focus on my thesis once microsoft is installed. For now, I am using this for editing purposes and some browsing. 

We woke up late this morning because we slept late last night, like around 2-ish AM. We wake Harris up at 8am for a morning walk, but he is still asleep. But then at 9am, he wakes up and said, "Mummy Papa, jom pegi taman." So yeah, we went out, get some breakfast and went to our usual spot for breakfast. It was quite sunny. Thankfully, there was less crowd. Harris just go for a round of running and then he's done haha. I guess he's still tired from sleeping late. 

On the way back, he climbed onto the stroller again. Thankfully, this time we parked next to the park, no walking up. 

My fabric mask today is so grawrrrr.

I look so fat and I hate it. It must be the baggy pants. Lol.

I told my husband to take panorama because I want to include the clouds in my ootd. But its panorama gone wrong. Haha. 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M. 

Morning walk

A toddler like Harris really need his outdoor time & I am also struggling to fix his bedtime routine because he sleeps late at night, and no day nap. Plus, Hannah havent been seeing sunlight that often, only on days for vaccines and our grocery time where my parents would take care of the kids for us. 

So on Saturday, all of us planned for a morning walk to Bukit Setiawangsa. Morning is the best time when the air is still fresh and not so many people around. Plus, all of our family are fully vaccinated, alhamdulillah. 

As a paranoid mother, I make sure everyone double masked or using KF95/KF94. As for Hannah, I bought a transparent stroller cover for her so she could still get sunlight. 

She sleeps most of the time though. Well, at least she gets a good amount of Vitamin D. She's also behave throughout the walk because she always cry if she lies for too long. I guess because the stroller kept moving so she's fine with it.

As for Harris, he walked up so fine. We showed him pokok duit-duit, mushrooms, paku pakis & many other things as well. He was very happy. 

At the bus stop while waiting for our food we order from Restoran Diva (Setiawangsa peeps must know this place). Then we climbed up some more to another park just below guard entrance to Puncak Setiawangsa. That park was quite empty so we stopped by for the watch tower and breakfast. 

I posted this on my Instagram & Whatsapp status and the most respond I got was how people are drooling over that air ikat tepi hahah. 

See, so convenient, alhamdulillah. 

The watch tower. I didnt climb up because I am too tired. It's not that very high though, the stairs to my house is higher. 

The last time we had photo here was during our photoshoot after our reception and Zira told us to take another, along with two kids. How time flies. We have two kids now. Lol. 

Also to highlight that Harris doesnt want to walk down and climbed in the stroller with Hannah because he's tired. Thankfully the stroller can take it. And as an update, Harris sleeps at midnight and no day nap. I guess he's been saving his energy and walking up Bukit Setiawangsa is just not enough. However, he sleeps so early when we dropped him at my parents house along with his cousins for our monthly grocery shopping. He went home, asked for milk and sleep right away, at 9 PM guyssss. I called my siblings and spread the good news, in fact, it's a MIRACLE! 

This will be our weekly activity now, in sha Allah. Even though there is a hassle of coming home and shooing everyone into the shower right away, it was worth it. We all came home feeling tired, except Harris. Lol. 

P/s: I am onto another project now. Pray for me pls. 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M.

Current Struggle

Postpartum hair loss 

I cant even touch my hair without having one or two strains of hair in my palm. Its frustrating but it is what it is. It's even more frustrating to see hair all the time. On my bed, on my carpet, on Hannah, and everywhere! 

Harris's toys

It is everywhere. The balcony where he plays sink or float, in the bathroom where he always bring his toys along for bath, on the couch where I cant even sit. I am struggling in keeping my house clean but I couldnt stop it because Harris either plays with his toys or spend the rest of the days on screen. So I kinda have to bear with it. 

Food crumbs

My toddler is at a point where messy plays is at peak, so he tends to play messy and make a mess also. He is becoming quite a picky eater these days so I am excusing all the food crumbs because at least I know he is well fed. 

The hardest question ever, "harini nak masak apa?' 

Lol this is hard. Plus, I am becoming lazier with leceh meal and I dont know why. So I always end up making such easy meal like ayam perap, or daging perap or bakso, because its the easiest. 

Waking up early. 

I always wake up late and sometimes I hate it. Because time tends to be shorter when I wake up late because I cant accomplish many chores or to-do-list because I wake up late. 

I wish I could handle this struggle well and improve myself. And try to see the bright side of everything. 

P/S: The sounds of shriek from Hannah is a signal that she's awake. And I need to get ready for Harris's school. 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M.