I guess its so hard to keep up with myself. Or its just hard for me to keep with blogging and all. But its what keeping me sane. Writing & blogging. And I need it now.
News flash: I enrolled for Masters in Engineering & Business Management. Wohooo.
And all of sudden, I'm having this sudden rush of thoughts that I shouldnt be doing this? Will I ever be able to cope.With my son, husband, household and work. I gotta to chase, to keep up. And the fees? It 6k per semester, god knows why. I'm starting to regret why I dont try and apply my masters elsewhere. Oversea? Been having that feeling since my parents went to US visiting their alma mater. They had good study time. Me? I needed that change of air. Studying. Make use of all my brain's capacity to think. Since I've always been the one holding myself back and procrastinate a lot. Its kinda lots to take in. And guess, I am very determined to finish my Gilmore Girls series so I wont be on that for quite some time and I finished it, and it ends with Rory said she's pregnant to god knows who the father is. I'm left with so much question mark and I mean thousands. But of course I read it somewhere online because some episodes tends to get lengthy and I need answers, still I'm caught off guard at 'I'm pregnant' thingy and things went blank and no more episodes. Dreadful. And I hate watching series if I have to wait more episodes to be aired. I tend to wait until all series came out and I can binge watch it and finally have an ending and the only thing I need to do would be wailing and floating over good ending (if its that good!). But now I'm not. I feel miserable for trying to finish it and left myself with so many questions. Well I just wanted a good ending. And I'm moving to Stars Hollow, if I may.
Okay enough with that.
My course briefing would be tomorrow and I need to register subjects within a week and I have yet to finalize subjects I'm taking this semester. What is wrong with me? I've been wanting and looking forward for this since I've decided I may want to be a lecturer like a couple month ago. I really didnt think this through? But I'm excited for classes. For assignments. For, being a student again. I may continue PhD too. Since I maybe want to be a lecturer. Or working in some other field which is not too far from engineering. Its just engineering & business management. And it seems okay? Well it is okay. Ergh whatever. I'm just having second thought and I shouldnt have! I'm excited.
Okay, I'm hungry and that's probably why I'm babbling and its been a whole day with me and Harris alone. I guess I need some me time. And I just finish the Gilmore Girls series. And it kept me awake. Duh. Omg something just popped in. Rory knows and I should've known because he asked Christopher (her dad) about what he thinks of Lorelai raising her alone. And oh god, I should've known. Well, okay, I'm definitely off topic now. I should be getting to bed but husband's not back yet. Probably have some time to look up the course outline and get myself prepared for tomorrow and for the whole 4 semesters I signed up for.
Okay, good night. Wasalam. Love, Nina M.
