Fraser's Hill

A journey I swear by myself I wont repeat unless it is for good reason. Seriously, it was hella dizzy and I couldnt handle it at all. But the view and weather up there is totally worth it. It was really a last minute plan. Well, that Friday my husband went outstation at Kuala Kubu Bharu for a site visit and he told me he wanna go up Fraser's Hill after that and he did. And on Saturday, we had no plans because all I want to do is rest, have some time to clear chores and all, and then my brother called me asking on our plans. And then my husband wants to take all of us to Fraser's Hill and my brother agreed. So after we had our lunches at my dad's cafe, we start our journey around afternoon, and we arrived around 3pm. I nearly vomited on the way up, very close to vomiting on the way down. But seeing the view, the scenery, the calmness, and Harris having fun with Aileen, I guess its all worth it. But husband better give me good reasons if he wants to take me up there again. 

My husband takes us to many many place ever since I resigned. I guess, its one of the perks. So, where to next? 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M. 

Life choices

The day have come when I realized I have no further life plans. I mean, in a way, its good, you're just following the flow and see where it takes you. But I dont really think going with the flow gonna help with your financial future plans. And that means, more kids, schools, etc. I mean, we cant keep living like this. Years go by. I aint getting younger. It's just.......

Probably its just hormones. (I'm pms-ing btw, so..)

My semester ended and all I'm doing now is house chores and cook. I'm loving every single second being a housewife, but realistically, I got a mouth to feed and I have all the capabilities to work. Putting everything onto my husband seems a bit off and unfair when I know I can do more. But he said he felt so much better coming home from work and us greeting him. It makes him happy. I'm glad. But I would be so glad if I could give more....

Well, it's the day that I've become so productive in house chores and completed everything and then I dont know what else to do and I am boredddddd. It's Saturday night and I dont know what to do. I cant sleep for several nights already and god knows why. Overthinking........

Maybe I should start looking for jobs but its just that I dont think that I'm ready. I just couldnt figure out what I want to work. Or what kind of jobs I'm looking for. Maybe I'm just sick of working in my previous industry. Missing it? Kinda, a bit. But sick of it, 101% positive. 

I'm turning 30 next year and I dont know whether I'm in the right path and picking the right life choices. I dont know. I'm clueless but I'm just demotivated (-in looking for jobs).

But I know, do good, be good, and everything will fall into place. In sha Allah. 

Everytime I ask him whether he wants siblings and his answer is always a straight up no. 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M. 

Mom life

In my personal opinion, for someone that grow love for cooking and house chores, I am living delightfully now. I mean, I've been working ever since we started renting and I dont get the real feeling of being a housewife because I always go back late and tired and weekend are the only time for us to talk and clean the house once in a while.

What do housewives do?

Clean the house
Clear the toys
Vacuum
Cook
Handling tantrums
Potty train a toddler
Cook
Clean the fridge
Laundry (wash, dry, fold)

A lot. I can definitely say that. BUT I am happy! I would feel tired at times, I mean who doesnt? But nothing feels so relieved than to see everything is under control (except for the toys) because IT IS EVERYWHERE.

And this morning, something happened.

I was in the kitchen, making breakfast and I heard Harris was nagging and I swear he said, 'mummy nak kne rotan ni'. And I was like, whatttttt?

And then he came to me, with his angry or tak puas hati face, 'mummy nak kne rotan ni' and gave me a poke.

"Kenapa marah mummy pulak ni?'

"Mummy simpan crane Harris. Jangan la simpan. Lepas ni Harris taknak beli lagi dah." 
(the phrases we used if he keeps breaking his toys but urm hello? who's been spending money for that, huh?)

"Mummy jangan simpan crane Harris, nanti Harris rotan." 

So there it is, I was nagged by my nearly 3 year old toddler. In all my years of living, my first time ever kne rotan by a toddler. Really.

Yea, the boy I've been talking about.

Wasalam. Love, Nina M.