Urm hi

Managed to drag myself to do another blog post, yays! But really, I dont know what to post about. Work has taken most of my times, and leisure. I come back home feeling so lethargic and too tired to cook, so husband kindly will buy foods for dinner everyday and helped me with so much chores and I can finally rest. But there would be nights that we both so tired that the sink is full with unwashed dishes for daysss and the only laundry we'd do is our working shirts. Like 2 to 3 pieces one wash. Hahaha, damn. That's not being lazy, that's just being so tired so we prioritize. Hahaha.


Tomorrow is Hari Wilayah holiday! Its gonna be a long holiday for me. But we have no plans for anywhere since we both didnt take leave on Monday. So its not THAT long holiday anyway. And husband's office is in Selangor so means no holiday for him. I'm gonna be home with Harris all day and I need to get myself back on track for my power pumping. My milk supply has dropped tremendously but Harris's demand for it still a lot. Being at work, always on the move and always needed, makes me unable to have time to pump. I would only pump once a day and being so busy, I always forgot to hydrate myself. Which is also a contributing factor. The weather has been so hot and dry for the past weeks but I guess its just not good enough to make me feel hydrated and thirsty to remind myself to drink more plain water. Time management has been so bad. House totally less organized. I would spend a bit of time to vacuum the house after dinner since Harris's food would be all over the place. And that's totally a therapy for me (as long as the kitchen's door stay closed, haha). I tried to discipline myself to wake up early in the morning and spend at least 15 minutes to pump while I get ready for work. And also tried to spent some time in the evening to pump too but always fail. So I guess this long weekend, I could try and get myself back to power pumping to increase my milk supply. Hopefully.

Anyways, I complete a PM skincare routine today and I think I want to cut my toe nails. So I guess I should be pampering myself tonight with good food, good late night movie, and coffee (havent had that for a month now!) and just relax. Well, up until Harris gets up for milk la. Which I'm highly sure that the next feed, I would fell asleep too. Gahhh, I'm gettin' old.

Okay, nightssss. Wasalam. Love, Nina M.

Phew

Really, I dont know how to start blogging. It feels like so long already. So I got transferred to site on 2nd January 2019 until further notice. Which I doubt I'll be back in the office. Which also, I think its time for me to move on. Move on to finding new job. Because I want to proceed for my Professional Engineer and I think being in main contractor company wont be much helpful in my journey. And also because its my 3rd year in this company and I dont feel like it, if you know what I mean. I am just not 'feeling' it.

Its only a month but it feels like ages already. I now have to assist for Document Controller work and also still doing M&E work. Which means I have to do documentation and all. Which includes doing Progress Report, updating work progress using work program and all. Its a whole new experience for me. And I'm grateful. But its also so tiring. Things are moving so fast, (or late) I just cant differentiate. Work is so much. You know, being at site, everything is urgent. And I went back home feeling so tired. And my increment sucks- one of the reasons why I wanted to find other jobs. The only perks would be my working hours is Monday to Friday only. Which is one of my main concern too. Since I gave birth, I think working hours would be very important. I wouldnt want to be working on Saturday, full day even. I would be super tired by the end of the week and get nothing done. Especially now I have a house to manage, a son and husband to cook for. Husband was very excellent though. He helped much with the house chores and even managing Harris. Wonder why I get so lucky. Well, also the reason he's obligated to clean the house more often is because Harris keep trashing the house and I just couldnt handle to see the mess. He keep taking all my tupperware, milk bottle and plays around with it and I can say that what's left is not much. There's always something missing. His toys wont keep him long distracted. So yea, he would disturb me while I'm cooking, while the phone is charging, messing around with everything. And I dont want my tired self gets in the way from me spending time with my little family.

Also this week I've been busy with progress report so I spent quite some time during the weekend completing it. Which I know I should manage my time better. Doing the progress report is a group work thingy so and yea, I've completed my part by Friday but since I'm the one that needs to compile and email out, I have to wait for others to complete it.

But anyways, I've been quite busy at work and havent got the time to be on the lappy for quite a while (but its not even a month yet?!). I've been lazing around at home today. And it feels surreal. So yea, having the mood to keep you all updated (haha as if anyone wonders where I've been). And even now, waiting for our McD delivery to arrive. Its been an hour though. I feel like blog walking but we'll see if my sleepy self could keep up because I'm starting to yawn and teary-eyed right now. And tomorrow's working day.

Damn it I'm starving and where the hell is that McD delivery guy anyway?!

Okay, thanks for reading my blabber of updates. I hope I could maintain the momentum of working and blogging. Hahaha.

Wasalam. Love, Nina M.