Saturday, April 9, 2022

Beaten Down

I have been away for awhile. It's something impulsive. It's either 100% or 0% means I'll be posting regularly, or none. Nothing in between. It's Ramadhan now. I am awake really early this morning, without sleeping in while my two kids and husband are sleeping soundly, on a Sunday morning, is something I rarely do. But I guess I needed the quiet time to actually processing some things in my head. 

To be exact, I am deeply frustrated. Still am. Reasons why I'm awake, duhhh. I might regret waking up this early later, but never mind. Let's not think about it now. Anyway, I was actively doodling and making patterns on Procreate. And a friend suggested me to try and sell my designs on Etsy. I thought I had a shot at this. Because I'm using international platforms where art making merchandise and digital stuff is actually being appreciated widely and the demands is so high. So I made it. And the next day, my account got suspended for no reason. I have uploaded few designs and the next morning when I came to check my account, it was suspended. No emails from Etsy, at all. I dont know whether it's permanent suspension or temporary. I have completed all outstanding payments and it should be running fine automatically, except it doesnt. So, I have been trying to figure out what went wrong and the reason of the suspension. It's really hard. I would've just ignore everything and make another email and register another account. But until I find out what's wrong, I am most probably be repeating something that's considered 'mistake' by Etsy which is causing the suspension. So until I know what's the reason behind it, I may be postponing this Etsy stuff. I needed the money though. I know this is a process, and it can be taking a while, or maybe soon, but I need to start somewhere. And I cant start now because I have no clue about what went wrong. 

So to be honest, I feel beaten down and frustrated since I found out my account was suspended. I deleted my listings and I am so ready to delete that Etsy account but I cant. Because it's suspended. So yeah. 

I have emailed Etsy yesterday and I am still waiting for replies or any news regarding this suspension because it is frustrating. 

Wasalam. Love, Nina M.